On 15 December 2008, recording company Polydor officially announced that "Si j'avais au moins..." as the next single from the album
Ozap deemed this release a "surprising decision" which recalled the choice of the ballad "Redonne-moi" as the third single from her previous album Avant que l'ombre... (2005).[4] As the song has a very slow tempo, author Erwan Chuberre deemed that Farmer made "an artistic rather than a commercial choice" when she decided to release the song as a single.[5]
On 15 January 2009, it was announced that the maxi vinyl, published in a limited edition, and the CD single would be released on 10 February, then delayed to 16 February.[1] The cover art of the promotional single was entirely red, showing a close-up, the head of the doll which had appeared on Point de suture. The cover of the single, which published on the internet on 27 January 2009, displayed a photograph by Simon Hawk.[1]
Lyrics
According to the author Benoît Cachin, "Si j'avais au moins..." deals with the absence of a loved being, which causes an unbearable but trainer pain. Like in "Redonne-moi", the lyrics use the lexical field of a "ghost which haunts the singer's mind", include some references to religion and the neologismenténèbrement.[6]
Music video
The music video for "Si j'avais au moins..." used many special effects which show Farmer's supernatural powers to heal and release the animals.
Directed by Bruno Aveillan,[4] the music video was filmed in mid-2008 in an abandoned hospital in Prague.[7] It premiered on the internet on 7 January 2009, and was officially released on television on M6, ten days later. The music video was shot just after "Dégénération", the first single from Point de suture, as both music videos are parts of a short film named The Farmer Project.[8]
The video starts with Farmer slowly walking in a laboratory in which many animals are captive to serve as experiments. Depicting a supernatural creature, the singer approaches every cage to look at all the animals – pigeons, cats, bobcats, rabbits, mouses, a snake, an owl, a monkey, a doe – and heals them with her magic hands. Then she takes a wounded little cat out of its cage and puts it on her shoulders. During the second refrain, she remains standing with closed eyes in the middle of the room and uses her supernatural powers to explode all of the glass cages. She thus releases the animals and, with a monkey in her arms, leads them outside into the woods. Standing in the forest, she closes her eyes again and sends many rays of light from her hands. The last scene shows the Earth being covered by that light.[9][10]
According to Lionel Steketee, "Mylène [was] very professional, thorough, discreet and almost shy" when she participated in the shooting of the video. He said she had to be careful not to get scratched by the cat, and that the final scene was difficult to film because the cats were afraid of the water used in this scene, the rats remained hidden in a corner and the birds did not fly much.[11] Given that the song deals with the pain caused by the absence of a dead person, the video is unrelated to the lyrics, as noted by author Alice Novak.[12] In reviews, Yahoo! Music said that, through the video, "[Farmer] invites us into her dark and magical universe",[13] and Premiere deemed it "mysterious, provocative".[14] Considering it a short film, Cachin praised the music video as being "perfectly done".[7]
Critical reception
"Si j'avais au moins...", reviewed after the album's release, was generally well received in the media.
Allmusic, he qualified "Si j'avais au moins..." and "Point de suture" as "standout ballads made of uplifting string arrangements and delicate vocal melodies".[17] Novak deemed the song "sweet and sad".[12]La Meuse considered it a "ballad with a strong lachrymal connotation".[18]
In France, "Si j'avais au moins..." charted poorly on radio, peaking at number 60 on the airplay chart in its second week, on 19 December 2008.
Ultratop 50 at number 25 on 28 February 2009, then dropped to number 38.[25] In Switzerland, it charted for one week, at number 72, on 1 March 2009.[26] The song began at a peak of number six on the chart edition of 7 March 2009 on the European Hot 100 Singles, which was the highest debut then.[27]
Promotion and live performances
Farmer performed the song during the
NRJ Music Awards, broadcast on 17 January 2009, on TF1.[28] She was dressed in white and was accompanied by many musicians.[29][30] She lip-synced a recording of the song she had made the day before.[31]
"Si j'avais au moins..." was performed as the last song during the 2009 tour, but only in the halls venues, and was cancelled for the concerts in stadiums. Farmer then wore a long white dress, and the stage was bathed in red and orange lights. During the refrain, many screens displayed images of lava expelled by a volcano during an eruption. The last musical bridge was extended while part of the staircase raised and showed a tunnel throughout which Farmer left the stage.[32] In December 2009, Farmer officially released the live video of the song on the Internet, video which was not featured on the DVD and Blu-ray for N°5 on Tour;[33] the instrumental version of the song, however, was used for the ending credits "Générique".[34][35]
Formats and track listings
The formats and track listings of single releases of "Si j'avais au moins...":[36]
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